Update; not a real blog.

Sorry dumplings, I'm in one o'those "moods" right now. xP
Here's what's been going on, since I haven't been on the compooper for 4-6 days.

-Alexis cut my bangs again. No more triangle forehead. :D
-I am training to become an assassin. (kidding)
-5months was on the 23rd! I gotsa roseeee<3
-I SHOULD HAVE GONE TO THE BMTH CONCERT;
-I am officially fat.
-I haven't been to the mall in a very very very very very long time.
-The cheerleading page in the yearbook is finished! I love it, personally. [:
-RAWR. Everyone's breaking up, and its sad. ):
-I gotta stop taking naps.
-I MADE THE A/B HONOR ROLL! :D :D I thought I wasn't going to. (x
-I reallllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyy want to get into ECTA.
-Algebra is getting easier. (:
-I hate it when I get that shiver-y feeling when I'm mad
-Both my CJ's are the besttttttttttt<3
-I wish I was grown.
-Days go by very very fast now. I haven't the time to enjoy them. -.-
-I really wish I went to Taste of Chaos.
-Everything and everyone is materialistic.


CherryBye,
~Jem

Mellifluous- my new favorite word. :D

Hey. :D

So, I over reacted a little last night, and I'm sorry for that. I'm just emotional. I mean, c'mon. That's part of being a girl. I hope you forgive me. :3

Anyway, I have somethings to talk about. This week has been interesting. I have some goods, some bads, some in-betweenies. xD But overall, it was good good. There's just times when I need to turn, smile, shift and repeat. ;D

Hm, do I use smiley faces too much? I don't care. :D

-Gonna write a song about CORAALINE! It was the bombesttttttt! Seejay, Alexis, Quin and I went to go watch CORALINE in 3D at TOWNSQUARE! [actually Town27-a-gon now ;D] It was raining alot alot alot, and we were late going into the movie theater. I think that's something that always happens to me. (x Alexis and I were laughing through the movie, and kept hitting each other. xD AND we jumped at the scary parts like 5times. After the movie, we went to Yogurtland, but I didn't get anything because it was too cold. The car ride was the best time of that night! I didn't know that Quin was so funny. Oh, and I'm a secret spy(; After we dropped the three off, my sister and I went to Albertson's, and I took so many pictures of the funny things there. xD Like there was this box of chicken wings, and the chicken was in a shape of a heart. xDD Very fun day♥

-People & things. I've been proven wrong; there are really good people out there. Even though I don't like it, I judge people really quickly. I don't really intend to, but I mean come on. Look at the year we're in. We can't go a day without judging ANYTHING. Whether we're at the grocery, or in public. Oh, this bread looks more healthier. or- Ew, that girl looks like a poser. Yes, I do these things. Who doesn't. The reason I do this though, is kind of for myself. Who doesn't want to be happy. I do this because I'm glad I'm not anything close to that. Those people out there who are doing good in the world- I respect you. Greatly.

-Writing writing? Usually, I'm always writing something. Always. In my spare time, or at school, always. Its my thing. But lately, its like all my inspiration went away. I can't describe a meadow, or see it in my head. I write down what's in my mind. I don't know what happened, I guess it was a change in something. I'm slowly coming back, by writing experiences. Maybe I'll share one with you one day.

-Chase Coy An amazing boy. His lyrics are brilliant, and I hope he doesn't become one of those people that becomes a jerk when they get signed. I don't even know if he's signed. xD But anyway. No one I knew never heard of Chase Coy a year ago. Only Monica. I started listening to him because of her, then Trinity did then Brandon, then freaking everyone. Whatever, y'know. I don't really care anymore. I'm just tired of sheep.

That reminds me, there won't be a playlist this week. I'm on a downloading quest for new music.

Those of you who take the time to read my rants and opinions, thanks. It means something. (:

I'm makin a list, &you bet I'm checkin it twice.

See if you can find the only flaw in that picture. Its like a big red light to me, I can't look at the picture without looking at the flaw. And yes, I took that myself. :P

Imagination. What I would say about it, are swallows[birds], trees, forests, all these nature related things. But the things I actually like, are kind of indescribable. I like puppets, and buttons. Staircases, and clouds. I like the sun, and I like babies. I like m&m's, and skyscrapers. I like weeping willows, and red windmills. I like victorian dresses, and fishnet stockings. I like big band music, and soft acoustic. I like many things, and all of them are part of my mind, and part of me. [Cheesey much? Let's get to the point. xP]

"Like a flying car with wings and square tires, with a punk Spongebob driving, and talking in a foreign language of sum41 [some] sort."
^^that's imagination.^^

The things that run through my mind during the day are realistic, and not fantasy. Do you get what I mean? It seems like when someone defines imagination, they automatically think of fantasy. Dragons and unicorns, rainbows and sparkly flowers. Not everyone is like that. This is called stereotyping. Its called profiling, and I could really live without it. Have you ever seen the movie Shallow Hal? I wish I my mind could be like that. I want to be able to see people for what they are, and not what they look like. It wouldn't necessarily be the exact deal from Shallow Hal, it would sort of be like a superpower. Look at someone without judging, without stereotyping, and without giving them a name. Like "big haired gangster girl" or "short skater asian kid." I'm sick of this world, and I want to live life with something more. More than just names.

Something that's nice to look at, is when the droplets on a foggy mirror start to slide down. The fog kinda disappears, and the water droplets just make their way down, soon to pool up on the edge of the mirror, and then evaporate. Its something we never think about. Inspiration hit me on a rainy day, and its the exact same thing. Rain comes down, and makes everything gray. It pools up on the streets and then evaporates then its gone. Showers & foggy mirrors are the exact same way. We take a shower, makes the mirror foggy, then the same process occurs. Repeat step one. Its just something I thought about the other day. :P

Sunday again! Here's the playlist. Very short, for I've been kinda busy. The theme is rain. And calming things, just stuff I've been listening to.

1.) Rainy Monday- Shiny Toy Guns
2.) Kiss the Rain- Yiruma
3.) Your Biggest Fan- NeverShoutNever! [not demo version]
4.) Where We Went Wrong- The Hush Sound
5.) Turn Smile Shift Repeat- Phantom Planet

That's it for now folks. Sorry for the frequent blog posts. I'll probably post one next friday; be lucky for the heads up. xD

P.S So far, 2009 has been killer. ♥

~Jem

Yiruma is a genius.

No one needs you more than I need you. (:
<-- One of the best days ever! Seejay's birthday. :P I'm the one grabbing his arm and hiding behind his hair.
L-R in the back: Kiran, Erica, Nate, Eddie, Me, Alexis, Sai, Armani, and this dude; I forgot his name. xD
L-R in the front: Angelo, Abagail, Seejay's cousin whose name I forgot, Christine, Seejay. (:

Anyway. My weekend started yesterday.

I went to Seejay's house after school, and it was really fun. We watched Spongebob and Back at the Barnyard for a couple hours. Even though I don't really like Back at the Barnyard. xD After that, his family took us to TownSquare, and we ate at Claim Jumper. The calamari was yummy, hehe. I don't know why people don't like seafood. (x We were gonna watch a movie, but then it was late, so they decided not to. Seejay's dad drove through the Strip, and I fell asleep on Seejay while they were talking. I didn't even notice I fell asleep until I woke up. (: All in all, I had a really nice time.
I told my sister about last night, and she kept getting mad at me because I have so much more freedom then she did at my age. Her curfew was when the street lights turned on. (x She told me that its strange to her that I go on family outings with my boyfriend, and she hasn't even properly met her FIRST boyfriend's parents. Keep in mind she's 27 years old.

Today, Valentine's Day, I went to Jannellynn's house. It was the first time I ever had a Valentine. Anyway, the people there were Me, Seejay, Beau, Trinity, Jannellynn, Arjay, Mark, and a whole bunch of Jannellynn's family. It was partially nice. When Seejay, Beau and I first got there, the boys were just skating while Jannellynn, Trinity and I just talked and whatnot. We went inside and ate, and then went upstairs and started to watch Across the Universe. MARK AND FREAKING ARJAY, freaking manly men that they are, didn't want to watch it. So I yelled at Mark to put in a different movie. We watched a really clear bootleg. :P
After that, I started to really get annoyed but I won't say why. I called Alexis, because she really does make everything better. After the phone call, Seejay and I just sat in the corner being really quiet because of everything that was going through our minds. I really like being with him, but sometimes we need to talk in privacy. There's barely any room for that.

Tomorrow is Sunday, and we have Monday off. So glad for that. Maybe I'll do something then.

To be honest, the world is really messed up right now. There are people without homes, without food, just trying to make the most out of life while they can. You think you're stressed? Be thankful you have a home and a bed to sleep in. You think your parents hate you? Be lucky you even have parents that care for you, and love you. You think you have it bad? Talk to a child in Africa, or Iraq. Talk to a homeless person in New York. I dare you.

With everyone acting like they're either at the bottom, or at the top, be lucky with what you have. I've been really taking things for granted lately, and I guess having Milk Square for the past four months has really opened my eyes. Picture yourself without having anything except the clothes you're wearing. Alot of people have it like that. Being in the cold, with no jacket.
Be lucky you even have a freaking jacket.

I love this blanket. Its so warm and it smells good. And its camoflauge. [:

On September 23rd, 2009- I'll show you what I've been writing. Ever since 2am, this letter's for You. Its gonna be long, so get ready to read it.

Closure:
-Butter cookies are bomb
-Having oreos without any milk is not bomb
-I'm proud of being Asian, there's so many yummy foods
-I feel like I talk about food too much
-I really need to start getting healthy
-Never start writing a strongly worded angry letter, then stuff it in your bag and leave it so someone could find it
-BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE.
-Reinvent love;

~Jem

If your hair was green, I'd eat it. :3

I...have a secret. But! Don't worry my dumplings, its a good secret. Its kinda based off this dream I had and yeah. :p I guess you can call it a "double life." AND NO, I don't wish to be Hannah Montana. Little h03. xD

So, yeah. That picture is how I feel. Free, happy, and... bright! :D Oh, and I cut my bangs. But you can't really tell. Heheh. :P

This week was pretty much fantastic-fantabulous. Taime and I came up with a plan to destroy all these -cough- ROBOTS. [: It was full of laughter, smiles, and... CRT practice. HoBoy.

-Man it feels like its been forever! Quote from Mitchell Davis, dumplings. (: I haven't been on the computer for a very very long time, [it feels] and I just have to say this. I go through my bulletin pages on MySpace, and I don't know why. I end up reading like two of them. Anyway. Alot these bulletins were from Ministry of Love, which is a local band here in Vegas. They have like three new members now, from when I first started listening to them two years ago. I saw them at Extreme thing, and now I think two or three members have left the band since then. I just thought it was different, because the ex-drummers mother used to come to the shows and run in the circle pit. Just reminiscing. (:

-FREAKIN CRT TESTING. I hate it. All we do is get giant packets that has reviews of stuff we did in 7th grade, and in the beginning of this year. Sure sure, it helps us get a better grade and whatnot, but all those wasted trees in those fat @$$ packets... Dx I had to have three packets open today to do my algebra homework. For my english homework, I have to lug around this giant wad of paper. Ugh. I wasn't ready for all of this on Monday, so when I came home, I immediately laid down on the couch and crashed. I didn't wake up until 7pm, and that wasn't cool. But Seejay stayed on the phone with me, and made me feel better. (:

-Publications So for my yearbook page, I'm doing cheerleading. Weird topic to pick, right? Well, it was better than Yu-Gi-Oh club or Junior Varsity Quiz. :P Anyway, I pretty much finished the page with my faithful partner, Sarah, today. [: All that's left that we need to do are the interviews... which aren't gonna be so fun. No offense, I have no problems at all with the cheerleaders whatsoever... I just don't want to talk to them. Look at me- I call myself original and not a sheepy robot. I have my own likes and dislikes, while everyone else is into GAUGES and COLORED SKINNY JEANS and SNAKEBITES and TEASING THEIR EFFING HAIR. I barely wear colored skinnies anymore, and I don't even tease my hair. Now look at the cheerleaders- (still no offense) They tease their hair, I think two of them have guages, and bleh! I don't want to interview those kind of people. Maybe I'll just do my only friends in there. Monica and Taylor. :P Of course they're asian. xDDD

-YouTube Rec Center video- 2/7/09 I'm really sorry about this! I keep trying to freaking upload it, but it takes freaking forever with all these stupid "Sorry, there was a network error occuring while uploading your video. Please try again." I'll try uploading it again right now, and if it doesn't work, I'll go over to Jannellynn's one day and just use her freaking fabulous and fast computer. :D (That was an alliteration! :D)

-NickNamesNickNamesNickNames So. I've been giving nicknames out to alot of people lately. Its Alexis's fault. :P (and I have dyslexia, just thought I'd put that in there xD)
Alexis, Taime and I have a secret code to our secret identities... Mine is Jem-Purple-Popsicle-Aminal-Kapowee-Asterisk. And yes, that says AMINAL. [: I forgot Alexis's and Taime's, but you'd probably figure out the "secret" if I remembered them. xD
I also named Taime "Taime Poof Toodles" because she kept saying Toodles to me, and last week I named her Poof, so it all just fit. Taime Poof Toodles. Sounds like a cereal, yes? :D
I named Nick in my publications Nickasaur! :D But he doesn't look a thing like him. Short hair, glasses, computer nerd... no way. The only thing they have in common is probably their computer skills. xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD


Oh. And if you ever see me burst into song in an awkward silence... Join me. It'll be less awkward. Plus, I'll love you. If I already don't... love...you. xDDD

Tell me. AM I ALLOWED TO BE THE NEXT LIZA MINELLI?! :D (EvenThoughI'mNotAsPretty)
I just like this picture. Ignore the mess in the back, and just focus on the sign that says
I ♥ U JEM :D b'cuz it was from Alexis. (:
And yes, I'm wearing fishnets, because they're sexy.

The End.

~Captain Jemito Wenito Breadstick[summer 08<3]

Weekly Soundtrack.

I know, I know, its Monday, and I was supposed to post this on Sunday. But I got yelled at yesterday for talking on the phone and being on the computer at 9pm. xD

From 2/1/09 to 2/8/o9; Sorry if there's any repeats from last time's list. (x
This week's list is sort of rain-related songs, since it was cold, windy, and rainy.
Also, alot of songs about missing people. (; <3

1.) Flightless Bird, American Mouth- Iron & Wine
2.) Rainbow Veins- Owl City
3.) Hold Me Tight- The Beatles
4.) I Miss You- Blink 182
5.) The World Has Its Shine- Cobra Starship
6.) You Are So Beautiful- Escape The Fate
7.) Harder Than You Know- Escape The Fate
8.) Chicago is So Two Years Ago- Fall Out Boy
9.) Maps- Yeah Yeah Yeahs (People at Arjay's party know whyyy ;D♥)
10.) Deadbeat Holiday- Green Day
11.) I Want You(She's So Heavy) -The Beatles
12.) I Want You To Want Me- Letters to Cleo (originally Cheap Trick)
13.) Hello Seattle- Owl City
14.) Northern Downpour- Panic At The Disco
15.) Too Much Too Often- Phantom Planet
16.) Meet Me in California- Plain White T's.
17.) Kiss Me- Sixpence None The Richer
18.) Tonight Tonight- Smashing Pumpkins
19.) Karma Police- Radiohead/Cover by Panic At The Disco
20.) And Darling- Tegan and Sara
21.) Lindsay Quit Lollygagging- Chiodos

Sorry I haven't been posting lately, I have no inspiration until this week. So until next time,

~Jem(:

Something to share.

She Was a Phantom of Delight
By William Wordsworth

She was a phantom of delight
When first she gleamed upon my sight;
A lovely Apparition, sent
To be a moment's ornament;
Her eyes as stars of Twilight fair;
Like Twilight's, too, her dusky hair;
But all things else about her drawn
From May-time and the cheerful Dawn;
A dancing Shape, an Image gay,
To haunt, to startle, and way-lay.

I saw her upon a nearer view,
A Spirit, yet a Woman too!
Her household motions light and free,
And steps of virgin liberty;
A countenance in which did meet
Sweet records, promises as sweet;
A Creature not too bright or good
For human nature's daily food;
For transient sorrows, simple wiles,
Praise, blame, love, kisses, tears and smiles.

And now I see with eye serene
The very pulse of the machine;
A Being breathing thoughtful breath,
A Traveler between life and death;
The reason firm, the temperate will,
Endurance, foresight, strength, and skill;
A perfect Woman, nobly planned,
To warm, to comfort, and command;
And yet a Spirit still, and bright,
With something of angelic light.

Just wanted to share a nice poem with you. I pondered after reading it. Its just... nice. (: Hope you enjoyed it.

AprilAprilAprilAprilAprilAprilAprilAprilApril

This is a wall. A very interesting wall, I might add. Art is beautiful. But I swear, Vegas isn't full of art. Vegas is full of TAGGERS. I want to go to New York, and actually see the real thing. Not this fake crap that has someone's initials written in bubble letters. What weenies. ;P

Anywayy. I can't wait until APRIL! Its when the letter from ECTA comes in to see if I've been accepted. [: I really hope I got in, and then I'm in the education program. Because if I get into the home technology one, I'm gonna electrocute myself. Just like how I accidentally lit a breadstick on fire... xP Glad I didn't apply for culinary arts. :D

So I finished Diary. It had a shocking ending. It kinda scared me though, because the thought of death is just really really unthinkable for me. I don't like it. xP I started Lullaby, and its also scary. I was reading the prolouge two nights ago, and I got super scared so I threw the book on my dresser. Then, I swear I heard my door open but it didn't. So I just laid down statue still, and went to sleep. [x I'm dumb. :P

I'm thinking of becoming a vegetarian again, and actually sticking to it. I know I know, its kind of impossible when you're Filipino, and your Aunties & Tita's are always bugging you to eat. (& Also, Alexis told me that I look anorexic, and that when someone looks at me they just wanna feed me) That's besides the point.
I was washing the dishes today, and I had to throw out old milk. ORGANIC MILK. I love organic things. And I felt bad doing it(even though its soo gross and smelly) because a cow had its boobies squeezed just for that shiet to come out. I mean, if farmer brown honked mine, I'd slap him silly. But then again I'm not a cow. BUT IF I WAS A COW. That's what I would do.
Then I started to feel bad that people actually eat tortured animals. And enjoy it. That's what grosses me out, even though I eat that stuff too.
So, for the next few days, I'm gonna research if being a vegetarian again is healthy for someone my age. Or I just might become a pescetarian. (<- - I have no idea how to spell that. Hopefully I got it right ;P)

Closure:
+ Christina Perri as amazing
+ Algebra homework is becoming easier
+ Never scream "I'MMMMM THIRRRRSSTTTYYYYY" at lunch
+ Across the Universe is the best movie ever
+ Backpacks save my life (:
+ I sold yearbooks to TWO people! Am I a good salesperson? ;D xD

All my loving,
~Jem

Loving life, every single day.

I never want this to stop. I'm so happy right now; nothing can bring me down. Perfect never had a meaning until now. (: <3

I think I'm gonna try and have a weekly soundtrack. xD I know it sounds kinda weird, but my iPod is right next to me lately. I'm attached to it. :D This week's soundtrack was happy/slow/acoustic songs. If you haven't listened to them, I suggest you should. There could be alot of songs, or just a few. Whichever the case, music is my life. :D

1.) So Contagious- Acceptance
2.) While My Guitar Gently Weeps [Acoustic Version] -The Beatles
3.) Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head- B.J Thomas
4.) Sing- The Dresden Dolls
5.) Its Just Me- Escape The Fate
6.) Such Great Heights- Iron & Wine
7.) Anyone Else But You- Micheal Cera & Ellen Page [Originally the Moldy Peaches or somethin]
8.) Shine- The Morning Of
9.) This Is For Real- Motion City Soundtrack
10.) Come What May- Moulin Rouge! Soundtrack, Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman
11.) Supermassive Black Hole- Muse
12.) For You- Nickasaur!
13.) Painter Song- Norah Jones
14.) She Had The World- Panic At The Disco
15.) Something is Wrong- Phantom Planet
16.) Crazy Little Thing Called Love- Queen
17.) Dejalo- Rilo Kiley
18.) A Walk Through Hell- Say Anything
19.) I'll Be There- The Rembrandts
20.) Beyond the Sea- Robbie Williams
21.) Everything- Micheal Buble
22.) You're Still You- Josh Groban
23.) More Than Words- Sungha Jung [look for this on Youtube]

Aaaand I think that's it. xD Josh Groban's been there since I was 6 years old, yo. :D

There's just some things out there that make me smile all the time. Babies, pictures, poems.. the list could go on. Its my goal to find happiness in the little things in life. I want to travel the world and capture everything. I want to keep it in my memory so I won't have any reason to be unhappy. Life is so content right now. Thank you to everyone that has made it that way. (':

I'm indecisive, but I'm certain about one thing. CJM will always be in my life along with ATM. Forever. :D♥