Dizzy Miss Jemmie

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Summer So Far.

Summer has been fabulous so far. I know I won't be constantly updating, because I'll be so busy. There's concerts, shopping, planning & parties to do. Summer 09 is gonna be killah. :]
(I love this boy. I've seen him for nine days straight since May 30th. -->♥)

June 4th: Last day of school! Publications was a blast, the party went great. It kinda died down towards the end of the hour, though. Science was boring, but I totally aced the test! :D

The school released us ten minutes early, so Katrina & I went outside, and Kahlia was crying! D: So then I started crying, and it was just a big cry fest. Lots of hugs. (x

After that, Seejay, Mako, my sister & I went to TownSquare to see Up in 3D! :D It was suuchhhh a cute movie. Definitely one of my top favorites. Go watch it with someone you loveeee. ;D

First picture of 6.4.09. This is our Pile O' Junk. :]

Publicationsssss(:

Me, Mako, & Seejay. :]♥

June 6th: Alexis's 14th [274th] birthday party! All good good fun. The people who attended are: Seejay, Taime, Briana, Kahlia, Sara, Erica, Sammie, Becca, Kin, Daniel, Brandon, Marcus, &moreee. :] It was so much fun! At first, no one was listening to me, Briana kept abusing me, then I had to go to "marrige counseling" with Briana, even though I'm not married to her. So I ran in the house, and Seejay was opening the door when I ran inside. I started fake crying so Briana could feel bad, and then people thought I was actually crying. Jeez. xD

I wanted to go swimming, and so did Taime & Seejay. Kin had already fallen in the pool, so...Yeah. xD Anyway, Taime & I got in and it was freaking COOOOLLLLLDDDDDD!!!!!! I couldn't even get used to the water! I was shivering the whole time I was in there! When Seejay got in, he still had his shirt on, and Kin was like "Hey, Seejay. Why do you have your shirt on?" and I said "Kin, why do you have your shirt on?" xDD So they both took their shirts off at the same time. Yeah, awkward. xD Seejay got in the water, and he started screaming! Then Kin kept complaining on how cold it was, so he kept on blocking the pool light, and putting it on his tummy. He said it was warm. Hahaha. x] Then Kin & Seejay went into the cave thing behind the waterfall, and started screamo-ing. xDDD Taime, Erica & I went rock-climbing around the pool! Its our little game where we can't let our feet touch the bottom of the pool, so you're pretty much rock-climbing. :D &You get three lives. Haha. Taime won with one life left, Erica won two lives left, and I lost with no lives left. xDDD Taime & I saw all these helicopters going the same direction! There were like twenty! There were murderers or something, because that was a buttload of helicopters! xD

After swimming, we ate some cakee! Alexis said not to eat the fondant, because its too sweet, and it will give you a tummy ache. Well, I liked it, and I ate all of mine. x] And went to get some moree. Then I had a tummy ache. D: We went outside in the front, and Daniel had to go homee. :[ I listened to "Lucy" by Nickasaur! Seejay & Kin were skateboarding, and Seejay still had that pipe in his mouth. xD [see above picture, very 1st one] Daniel came back and he was grasping his shoulder, and he's like "Do you guys have some big ass band-aids?" and he went in the house. Everyone freaked out and was like "Is he bleeding? Is he okay?" and yeah. He was fine. He just fell off his bike. [while someone wheeled it to his house, but didn't help him. odd]

Daniel's incident took about 15 minutes. I was being nostalgic during that time. Seejay went home, but then came back later because he forgot his skateboard. x] Taime, Briana, Kahlia, Sara, Kin, & I went over to the chocolate fountain, and we were eating all the stuff that was over there. I made mini-smores, Kin was stuffing mini-marshmallows in his mouth, and Taime told him not to do that because someone died doing it. xD

At about 10pm, we all relaxed on the couches and flipped through the channels. It was SNL and weird programs on that night, so there was bear porn and 80's comedy sex scenes. So, we all freaked out, changed the channel, then looked at each other, then started bursting out laughing. xDDDDDDD We decided to watch True Life: My Parents Are Embarrassing 2. We were only watching it because this really really really pretty girl [who was only 14 but looked 18] had a freaking wanna-be-playboy-model mom. It was freaky. The girl was all hardcore, and the mom was all blonde and booby. xD

Alexis had set up a bed in her newly designed room [forest tree wallpaper....very cool] and it was the most comfortable bed ever. Briana & I couldn't sleep, so we were messing with Taime & Kahlia, who were sleeping. xD Then Becca & Alexis came in, and Becca made me sing to her. ALOT. I sang the following songs because she made me: All My Loving, Blackbird, If I Fell, Girls Just Want to Have Fun, Harder Than You Know, I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off, Don't Wake Me Up, Your Biggest Fan, Painter Song, Third Measurement in C, and more. Some of them I chose, some of them she chose. Then we went 80's, and sang Pat Benetar. Kahlia & Briana joined us. xD Briana started singing "Halo." and the only part I sang along to was "Y'know you're my saving grace." Yeah. I'm cool. x]

Butchering the chocolate fountain. Happy birthday!♥

Amazing room & bed.

Sammie, Jemmie, Briana.[e]

Daniel, Brandon, Seejay, Kin, Marcus, Erica. :]

You know who we aree(;

June 7th: Breakfast was bomb. Eggs with tomatoes and onions, and then three types of pancakes: regular, butterscotch, and coconut. I had a coconut one, and it was delish. And I ate my eggs in three seconds. xD Briana & I went swimming after breakfast, and we were tightrope walkers. [We were walking on the pool vacuum hose thing.] I GOT A TAN. I LIKED MY COLOR, AND NOW I'M DARK. I HATE THE SUN. xD

I went home around 12 or 1pm, and LITERALLY, as I pulled up in the driveway w/ Mom, Seejay texted me and he's like "Wanna go to TownSquare?" So I showered as quickly as I could, then left. xD

I felt bad, because we were all smooshed in the car. It was Seejay's daddy, mommy, Christine, Seejay, me, Justin, and John-John. Christine had to sit with Seejay's mom, and I felt badd. x3
We ate at Claim Jumper, but there was a twenty-five minute wait. So we chilled on the benches by the restaurant, and we saw Eddie! Hahaha, Seejay's mom was like "Where's your girlfriend?" and he was like "I don't have a girlfriend yet." [yet. yet. yeeeetttt. ;D] Then Seejay's dad was like "Oh. Look at Seejay." xD [which was really awkward because I see Eddie at school everyday and he's with someone else that its awkward to be around did that make sense not really hahaha]
Seejay's mom & dad kept taking pictures of us! It was..Argh! I don't know, but he took like alott. It was weird for mee. x3

Anyway. We sat down, like three booths away from when we did last time in January. xD Seejay & I got the exact same food we got before. He got black tie pasta, and I got ceasar salad. Yuuup. :] And, as always, I didn't finish it. x] After lunch, we walked around. It was a nice day. Nice, sunny, and it wasn't so hot if you were in the shade. :]

How's summer for you so far? :D

I don't understand. I really don't.

I want this to really be forever.

But I don't want to be fighting all the time.

I really do love you. Don't ever forget that.

08-09 School year.

As of today, there's only 6 & 1/2 days of school left. [technically 5 full days and 3 half days but w/e :P]

Looking back, there's so many things that have happened this year. Even though it wasn't my best year in middle school, it was memorable.

Of course, there's things I learned that helped me get to who I am today. There's a big difference between the Jem in August and the Jem in May.

The first thing I learned is that I really don't have to care what other people think. Alot of the time last year, I always had to watch what I said, how I acted around people, and who I hung out with. Just because I didn't want to be seen as some kind of noob. But this year, I hung out with WHOEVER, said WHATEVER, and acted as MYSELF. I even made alot of new friends, and lost some along the way. My self esteem has grown because of this. I am friendly, and jovial. Its a good thing. Soon, I'll grow to be confident about myself, and stop being jealous about looks. -.-

Another thing I learned is that I'm able to stay in a relationship longer than I thought. My last relationship lasted for three months. The relationship I'm in now just got marked as eight months. Back in September, I really thought I couldn't handle it at first. Even though I wanted it so bad, I assumed that it would just flake. But look at things now. We have four more months until a year, and that's pretty strong if you ask me. I'm proud of myself, and I know that this will continue forever. :]

There's supposed to be some kind of barrier between friends and exes. There were some quarrels during the first few months of the 'couple period.' In my mind it will always be the originals. But after a while, everyone started dating each other. It was really weird to see someone holding hands with another person, when two weeks ago, they were 'just friends.' Yeah, I could notice it, by why did it have to be so soon? I guess people nowadays just feel that they HAVE to be dating someone; whether they really like them or not.
With me, its different. You wouldn't understand unless you were in my shoes...

Listen to your heart. It really works. I know it sounds like another cheesy-ego booster-fortune cookie type of thing, but I'm dead serious. I had to make decisions in the past nine months that could have affected the rest of my life. My conscience told me the right thing to do for all those situations, and look at the outcome. I'm completely happy with everything. ♥

Real friends are forever. The laughs, the fights, the concerts, the sleepovers, the crushes, and the jockers. The clothing and the homework, the phone calls and the bracelets. Soo much fun. Its these type of people that you know you're going to stay in contact with because of the times you've had. Pretty straightforward.

Christian Jacob, Alexis Taylor, Taime Elizabeth, Christopher James, Jannellynn Caday- You've made my year amazing. Thank you. :]<3

Blast from the Past

FRIDAY, MAY 15TH, 2008
-Field trip was fun. Hung out with Briana, Kahlia, Katrina & Tiana.
-Slideshow was a freaking success. :D I cried after it though. Not because of the pictures, but because Tatiana was crying [she's moving] and because it finally hit me that we're all going to different schools. :[
-After school was an ADVENTURE! I love Alexis, Taime and Kahlia. So many inside jokes were created. We gotta jump the sun! xD
-DANCE DANCE. Oh holla holla. [pronounced hah-la, hah-la] So much fun. No words for it. You just had to be there. ;]
-China A Go-Go! It was fun for the first 20 minutes or so, until these effing immature kids crashed the party. You fckers owe me money.
-Alexis's house was great. I was slaphappy in the pool, and we all passed out with wet hair and in our jammies. :] More inside jokes were invented. He's an outdoor cook! You should neeevverr seeee his eeeyyyeees. xDDD

STORY!
Its just something I thought of on the bus. Its not about me.

"Why," he stated. "Why should I have to say anything to her?"

These words I heard from someone else. Not him.

"Why?! Is that what he's asking? How about I ask something? Why does he have to behave like a child? Its not like I'm trying to intentionally hurt him. Why does he hold in his feelings? Why does he have to question my apologies?!" I yelled.

My friend just looked down. Too afraid to look at me. I knew after I shouted, I felt bad for saying it. For putting others in a state of confusion.

That night, I didn't even bother to say goodnight. To anyone. I went straight to bed.

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"What did I do?" I cried. Warm, wet tears were streaming down my cheeks. "You know well, I don't deserve this. From you, of all people."

He sighed. "Listen. I've tried to forget. Forget the past. I'm trying to start over. Its just every time I see your face..." He trailed off.

I choked down a sob.

"Every time I look at you, everything comes back."

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I woke up with a sheen of sweat on my face. I looked at the time, and realized it wasn't real. None of it was.

Well it just goes to show, things are not what they seem. Please, sister morphine, turn my nightmares into dreams